10/10/17 Tuesday

            Woke again and had a time of prayer that reached out to so many places and people.  Read book of Hebrews and as usual reading the Bible helps calm my soul and clear my mind.

            Still very weak and was not able to eat until supper.  In afternoon I rested in my bed because I felt so weak.  At times I get so tired of being tired.  But this time it is investment pain since I got to see so many brothers and sisters in Christ.

            Ate a piece of cheese at lunch time and it did not go well.  Bonnie made me some rice for supper and it went okay.

            But God nourishes me and blesses me.  As My Love said when I asked Him to take this away, “I will heal you through this and not from this.”  My Love is so right!  I am so close to God at times that I would not trade what I am going through and miss the joy of being so close to He who loves me so much. 

            When I came to God I thought He would tell me how bad I was and that I did not deserve His love.  While all that was true My Love told me that He loved me and wanted me to discover the fullness of that love.  When so many saw me as a loser and a drunk God saw me as His child that He loved!  All of you who are told what you are not or that you are nothing realize two things.

1.      People will seek to lift themselves by putting you down.

2.      God sees you as His child and see all that you can be through His forgiveness and love!  SEEK HIS LOVE!  I did and God has given me a life I could not have dreamed of!