It has been a long time since I updated my condition. Sometimes I feel I am just sharing my complaints but I hope to show you the glory of God in the midst of my suffering. It is so hard to understand why I am going through this. Some believe bad things happen to bad people and good things happen to good people. There are two problems with this reasoning.

     First Jesus reminds us only God is good! We are all tainted and covered with our sinfulness and we truly only deserve sickness and hell!

     Secondly if you look through the history of Christianity you will see many people God uses were either martyred or were disabled in some way. God works through our weakness. If we allow it!

     I continue to get weaker and so weary my mind is at times so clouded it is hard to read or even pray. Not only does the Holy Spirit speak for me but teaches me to just pray God will work things out according to His will. At times God’s will seems harsh to me but I trust God’s will and purpose.

     Please pray for my family who struggle having to help me dealing with my decline. I never know from day to day what I can do which is not only frustrating to me but also to them. I can look back and see how so often I failed them as I ministered. I pray God will bring them healing for my failures.

     Pray not only for those who are ill but also pray for their caregivers for they struggle and hurt just as much if not more.

     Each day God blesses me in so many ways! There are so many ways God uses me and when I think about others it relieves the pain some. All glory and honor to God who uses me in my weakness and sin I still struggle with. I, who deserve nothing, praise God who cares for His children and calls for the lost to come home!