I will never go home

There is no home

Memories hurt

They bring fear

They confuse me

Never had home

Always a fool

Always fat

Always stupid

I am not enough

Judged lacking

Pain of rejection

I am a drunkard

I have dying blood

Healed to live?

Life continues pain

Find home in God?

Still no home

I hurt all around

Each one hurting

Years of not enough

Of not being right

Of not making home

Being born was life

Vomited it for death

Live in house not mine

With people not family

I cannot make a home

I cannot make a life

I can abuse grace

Abuse till beyond

Abuse to death

Hell is not my home

Hell is my sentence

A sentence I deserve.

I will never go home

      Hebrews 6             8/16/2020