Veterans Sunday 11/14/16

Today we celebrate the service of others

I feel out of place here and with this

When I came back all was wrong

Not really my office or place

They try to be nice but are distant

Forget so much, forgotten so much

The service was a nightmare

Flashback after flashback of loss

I could not worship through pain

Blood of so many shut out Yours

I wanted to throw up to vomit

But the evil would not come up

The evil would not come out

For the first time wanted to run

To run away but where to go

Dad is in the VA hospital

Should be there but cannot

Where do I go to get help

“My help comes from the Lord”

But today I felt lost again

First time since You came

Mindlessly not watching

Football on the TV

Finished sermon planning

For the first quarter of 2017

Is that a faith or ludicrous hope

Or me trying to order my mind

Too many chickens running loose

Too many thoughts in chaos

My mind like a child asks

“Can ronnie come out to play?”

But ronnie is not here today

Ronnie has gone away

I have trashed so much

I have not done enough

So I am never enough

Please my Love be enough